Jerusalem's Walls

I was reading in Nehemiah the other day, just sort of "perusing" you might say...if one can indeed peruse Scripture...but I was, so there. Anyways, I was reading as Nehemiah got word of the state of Jerusalem and the destruction of the city. He heard that the city was in ruins, and he began to weep bitterly. Nehemiah wept and mourned the city for days, praying and confessing the sins of himself and the people of Israel. Quite frankly, it's astonishing.
Nehemiah's heart was so burdened for the things of God and His people that his heart was broken over the state of Israel. I got to thinking, if this is one of the foremost examples of a heart tender to the things of God, then where am I at on the spectrum? It is obvious that Nehemiah was aware of His position before the Lord, and aware of God's goodness. He prays:

"Oh LORD God of heaven, the great and awesome God who keeps
covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his
commandments, let your ear be attentive and your eyes be open, to
hear the prayer of your servant...."

This is a guy who knew God. And because he knew God in an intimate way, he understood sin. Later on in that same prayer, he begins to confess the sinfulness of Israel. If my heart was more attentive to the world around me and the things that I allow in my own life, would it cause me to weep? Not out of mindless emotionality, but of genuine heartache over the things that grieve my Father. I'm not trying to throw a big pity-party for myself or anything like that, but isn't the ultimate goal to have your heart reflect God's in a way that it permeates ever fiber of you? Isn't that what sanctification is all about? Oh, that God would invade me to the deepest part and one by one remove the calluses. I am praying for that. Maybe you should too.